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April 24, 2006
Glowing
There's a side-effect to the surgery that no one tells you about when you're getting all of the lectures on things that may happen after your stomach has been made into a miniscule pouch and your digestive tract shortened. Everyone knows that you begin to lose weight, normally fairly quickly, and then it slows down some. That's why you're doing it after all, right?
What they don't tell you is that apparently you begin to glow too.
I had about a dozen people this weekend at faire tell me that I have been glowing. I hasten to reassure that no, I am not currently pregnant. I guess that the glow comes from health, and happiness.
I'm moving around more this year than I have in forever. I can walk all of the way across the faire site without stopping three or four times to rest. I can do multiple Court dances in a row without feeling as though I'm going to die when I'm only halfway through the first one. I not only keep up with most of my friends on most days, but am even occasionally ahead of them!
Now, I will not lie. I still have a large amount of weight to lose, and I still have my days when my feet are killing me and my ankles hurt and swell, and I just want to find a bench somewhere and sit. I still collapse into bed and sleep the sleep of exhaustion at the end of every faire day. The difference is that the times when I want to just sit at faire are fewer and fewer, and are more often than not simply small parts of the faire day rather than entire weekends long, and the exhaustion is honestly achieved as I usually cover the entire length of the faire grounds at least four times during my day. (The grounds of the faire total 35 acres. I'm not sure what the length portion of that is, but I AM going the longer of the two dimensions.)
So, if you are reading this and considering having the surgery, I guess that I have to say that despite all of the frustration, and the wishes that I were more consistent or losing faster, this HAS been worth it, and will continue to be worth it. Yes, it's hard. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, but as one of my favorite movie quotes says:
It's supposed to be hard. If it wasn't hard, everyone would do it. The hard... is what makes it great.
So when you do this, because if you're thinking about it and REALLY considering, but you're nervous about it, then you probably do need to do it, then remember that after all of the pain, and the soul-searching, and the frustrations (physical and mental), things will get better. When that happens, suddenly one day you too will start to glow. And when you begin to glow, someone will notice and say something, and THAT, my friends, will be a moment that will tell you that it was all worthwhile.
Posted by Lys on April 24, 2006 11:43 AM
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YAY LYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Kim
Posted by: Peacebug at April 28, 2006 9:17 AM
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